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Took me until about halfway through college before I realized “study” means “play with the material in a variety of ways until you understand it” and not just “read the assigned chapters and do the homework” and I think that probably should have been discussed at some point prior to that.

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I almost forgot how excruciating working Excel with a track pad is

#elvy #studyblr #excel

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08.01.2023 • sunday

spent the day writing my reports. i was studying in my dorm but then my friend invited me to her place so we spent hours together baking, studying, talking and just chilling. it was very nice<3. she gave me my new year’s gift and i gave her hers!!

p.s. i’m really loving this doodling on the pics thing, can you tell?

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wednesday, 7 february

day 4/100 days of productivity

went to the library today and it was sooo busy at first i struggled sm trying to find a seat! i did some basic circles questions today bc i hadn’t gone over it in like a year. i also learnt some atmosphere fcds and i didn’t actually end up focusing much on biology

5hrs 35 mins on forest today ﾟ𐦍༘⋆

♪ of the day : if you wanna — the vaccines

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"nothing is real atoms never touch each other youve never touched anything in your life" ok. well when i pet my dog he is soft and when he licks my hand it is wet and that is far more real to me than whatevers going on at an atomic level

[biomechstudent]

Repeat after me:

The first draft just needs to exist

The second draft needs to be functional

The third draft needs to be effective

The first draft just needs to exist

The second draft needs to be functional

The third draft needs to be effective

The first draft just needs to exist

The second draft needs to be functional

The third draft needs to be effective

Remember, the second and third can't happen if you don't have something to work with. Your first draft will always be shit compared to your third, but at least it exists. The worst first draft is an unfinished one. The best first draft is a just completed one.

You read books/stories not in their first draft form-- only in their finished form (third, fourth, sometimes fifteenth draft). So stop comparing your first draft with a final one.

So, just write--you can make it better later. Perfectionism is the greatest weight a creator can carry.

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[biomechstudent]

every once in a while i learn some wild new piece of information that explains years of behavior and reminds me that i will never truly understand everything about my ridiculous adhd brain

[biomechstudent]

Modern academia

earphones in at all times

reading on the train

studying on Facetime with your friend

podcasts

creating study playlists

decaf coffee or tea

venting in the notes app

coat and hoodie combo

learning a few languages on Duolingo

historical shows on Netflix

buying books online

rewriting notes from notebooks to laptop at home

credits: Pinterest and owners

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I love doing research, I am not tearing my hair out (lying)

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source

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the darkest side of academia that the dark academia genre exhibits to me is the ivory tower. the superiority complex. the snobbery. deluding yourself that you are superior to other human beings because of your accumulated information, information used as justification to behave with contempt.

i’ve recently read the brilliant The Secret History by Donna Tartt, a staple book of the dark academia genre, and what marked me was the contempt with which the exceptionally intelligent group of main characters treated everything: from the people around them to technological advancements and innovations in any field which was not theirs (namely, the classics).

i’ve been contemplating that, personally, i am not interested in knowledge that cuts me off from the world. i am interested in knowledge that enhances every facet of my experience of the world. i am interested in knowledge that deepens my connection to myself and to the people i encounter. the moment knowledge instils a sense of superiority, elitism, and exclusivity, to me that is not knowledge. that is a trap of the illusion of knowledge.

the trap will come, and i've seen it in me plenty: at our core, we are meaning-making machines and our identity is built on separation, comparison and rejection. the mind will feed into the making of identity any information it gathers. but ultimately we are not slaves to it. when the allure of superiority peeks its head, it can be deconstructed – not from a place of fear or shame, but from a place of understanding and gentleness. that is knowledge to me. what excludes that, to me, is accumulation of information.

i love reading dark academia books because they mirror back to me my ingrained patterns (such as fascination with exclusivity; exclusive teachings, teachers such as Julian Morrow - writing an article on him at the moment!) & the many traps paving the / my way.

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"Your structure is very uncommon"

Yes. Maybe because it's a bachelor's of engineering not of science???

My dude?

Also my prof and my boss have very different ideas of how a paper should be structured

I am eating paper

#elvy #studyblr #academia #rant #Thesis frustration

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My boss sent back his correction of my Bachelor's Thesis...

He put in a comment that he's missing my hypothesis...

Right below the paragraph with my hypothesis...

I want to scream this is so frustrating

#elvy #studyblr #academia #rant #I'm almost done with my thesis and i wnat to hit sth

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what you don’t get is science exists because people can love. medicine exists because people love each other enough to want each other to live long healthy lives. astronomy exists because someone loved the stars and the planets enough to track them through their ever changing position in the darkest night. science exists because humans are curious little creatures and we want to know the world around us and understand it like it does us. we know stars and planets worlds away, we’ve sent cameras worlds away, all because we love the universe, and we also put love in those satellites!! we sent the sound of a 100 languages, lovely messages, the sound of rain and a laugh, all out there just in case there’s someone in the universe looking for us like we do them, and so that they know that they were never alone, and we sent them the most simple loving things we could find.

science exists because people can love

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throwing my beakers of radioactive goo on the lab floor and tearing up my equally radioactive notes because p > 0.05 >:(

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T-SNE graphs look like snacks or a ball pit and I want to crawl into the screen

#elvy #academia #i am very normal about science #unhinged science thoughts #T-SNE