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thoughts on the movie luca (not profound)

- i love how alberto is tanned coz hes always on the surface

- giving me call me by your name vibes

- alberto so confident hes so hot (like how i like nick wilde from zootopia)

- wheres dad?

- what if everyones a sea monster???

- why does luca daydream alot

- luca bisexual king

- is this euphemism for coming out????

- the two old grandmas are lesbian couples huh HAHAHAHAHAHA

- this train scene very call me by your name

- anyway tldr; it’s call me by your name HAHAHAHAHHA

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[24.08.2021]

mom and i were on our self care dates and we went to church and we were driving but the back gate of the church was closed. 2 cars were there. one wanted to leave thru the back gate the other needed to enter thru the backgate.

we were also planning to leave but couldn’t since there was a car blocking the way but since i thought they were gonna open the backgate, we just waited.

but when the car outside is going in thru the backgate the car inside couldn’t wait and went out so they had a little bit of a collision and they went out of their cars and they fought and one of them said “wtf did say to me?” he was a man in his 60s with his wife and then he took out his gun we were all shocked but still watched coz honestly i’ve never seen anything like this before and i dont think he’s gonna shoot.

he shoved it to the other person’s head but didnt shoot but he held it carelessly enough for me to be scared but then the other person started to bring out his knife and the old man was like do you think im scared THEN BRINGS OUT HIS OWN KNIFE????? WHATTTTT

so like the gun, i thought that the knife was just there to threaten the other man but then the man in his 60s started cutting himself to show that his knife can cut tapos his wife stopped him but he also cut her a bit and then the other guy, to check if his knife works, started stabbing the old man and that was my cue to leave coz everyones crazy and then i woke up

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days are getting bad again so i met with my psychiatrist last idk when anymore, dates are jumbled. he laughed when he learned that in two weeks i would be having my finals because the medicine really messes up my head a bit for the first two weeks.

so here i am, writing this down. crying for no reason but i just want to let it out and my exam is in 14 or so hours and i’m not sure if i’m ready for it and my head hurts and i want to study but i can’t.

so i’m listening to raleigh ritchie, my comfort music when i know i need to cry. i might debrief this with feel good music because i NEED to study or i’ll allow myself to read through and hopefully that would be enough.

11.06.2021; 23:51.

UPDATE: i passed hekhek and i got a good grade, too!

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hello! finals week is coming up for me and i really wanted to film a good study with me video where it feels like we’re studying together, no sound and all! i find that study with me videos help me focus and be on track with whatever i’m studying.

but… i got a new dog!!! well, dogssss. hence, this video. i feel like i will never be able to post study with me videos again without the edits just because there will always be a dog who barks at a mere opening of a door,  a sister who just finished her semester and excited to play, and a little puppy who licks everything in sight.

also my mom is not used to dogs just yet… so i found that really funny.

AND I JUST WANT TO DO ASMR I GUESS (also..... is this what adhd feels like.....)

good luck to me and all of those going through their exams! and just life in general!!! we can do diz

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2021 BTS FESTA THOUGHTS

94 liners “best friend”🥺

JINKOOK “30” huhuhu

taeyoonmin saying oldest brother in different ways ahuuu

namjoon’s comment on yoongi wahahahaha

SOPE!!!!!

YOONJIN UWUUUU

goodfriendzoned uwu

vitamin please!!!!

taehyung just ranking them by age

charm!! jikook please

yoonmin smol and cute plz im just screaming

marvelous taejin im dead

im literally holding onto every word

“i value the most recently” hopekook please

ayaw pa umamin ni jin na worldwide handsome

hajima nickname ni joonie HAHAHAHAHA

SO SINO BA FACE GENIUS HAHAHAHA

“touching my ears while talking” that was something that sabrina noticed uwu

picking at calluses jungkook pls

my duty

“textbook”

jin saying he has to work harder on everything please i love u

“a bit better than people think” yes ure right

jimin?????? excuse me ure doing great sweetie

tteokbokki amp

RM and SUGA thought of each other for respect i will cry

maknae line for the word promise uwuu

nothing really bitch jk if ure not good at anything then what

that people are inherently good, damn namjoon

jimin uwu

confident in members uwuu

wanting to be in bts for longer yoongiii

when he said bangtan is his future im literally crying

their answer to bts im crying

I WANNA BE FRIENDS WITH THEM DAMN

im so jealous of bangtan coz theyre around each other all the time

baket sila hubad nagwoworkout hihi enebe

yoonmin said if u cry i cry

taehyung making fun of joonie crying hahahah

jin’s tmi: he’s really a personality noh hahahaha

hobi is so clean HAHAHAHAHA

namjin maiking fun of jimin HAHAHAHA

jinmin romanticizing their youth hahaahaha im here for it

the flood to hybe building today!! huhuhuhuhu

namjoon giving bts promotions every 10 mins hahahaha

30:51 lolo talaga si suga huhuhhu

lakas mang-asar ni taehyung

ok im taking a rest on the second book, ive been wanting to sleep since

jin handstanding in the shower is something i would like to seeidk

#beigedrafts

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!!!!!!!! today was hard, very hard. but we go on. 12.06.2021; 00:55. #beigediaries https://www.instagram.com/p/CP_MVPPJ0Duvz48K5CTwPbJKHB85t_x-BjwRXM0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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[subtitles available uwu] the funny thing about this is we cut the video because we lost internet connection and now i uploaded this late because of poor internet connection again :(

Cyan was forcing Beige to play Roblox but Beige agreed on one condition: Cyan has to speak tagalog.

i really hope that schools don’t adapt this rule of speaking english in school grounds at all times (with students being penalized for speaking our native language) and though i understand that we could have asked her to speak tagalog at home, she really had a hard time learning english the first time so we spoke english at home as well but even if we stopped talking to her in english, it was hard for her to unlearn habits, hence the english-speaking.

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so after 3 weeks of tHe BiG sAd and beige doing most of her duties as a law student literally on her bed for God knows how long… there was an attempt to force herself to get up and pretend like everything in the world is okay 🙂

so here’s an attempt for a pRoDuCtIvE dAy as a law student in the Philippines… well, productive day for “online” law school (even when we really didnt have internet connection for the entire day), i guess.

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subtitles available uwu

do u get it? soups + stories = one 🍲 on a time!! HEHEHEHEHE (i’m still figuring how to spell it)

since the quarantine, wala talaga ako mapagchikahan so dito nalang hehe

reminiscing that one time i met the boy i was fangirling over while trying miso soup!

idk why im so defensive but this really happened!!! but im too shy to mention the guy's name because it feels so personal to say his name so we get to hear bleeps and clues as to who he is.

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WARNING: MAJOR CRINGE 

 the main point of having the channel was supposedly to talk about our similarities and differences in law school since beige is studying law in the Philippines while Red is studying law in the Netherlands, this would be the very first episode where we talk about things that truly grinds our gears in law school. 

if you want to be a lawyer (or just interested in law school but tbh idk why you would be) here are some things we wish we knew before entering law school. if you have any questions, don’t hesitate to ask us in the comments below! :) 

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disclaimer: this was filmed prior to the imposition of stricter regulations in oriental mindoro  [subtitles available uwu] 

hello!  welcome to beige’s very first effort at vlogging. 

 we salute people who do weekly vlogs because it’s really difficult.  an attempt was made. 

 beige wanted to document these times in hopes that she will look back at this fondly (and not cringe but the latter is highly unlikely) ~ this is the first week of her second semester of being a second year law student ~ 

music: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t3kUQ...  - beige’s excuse to use a BTS song in our videos but HONESTLY this song was just fitting for the week 

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study with us! 30 mins!

when my brother was still here in the Philippines, we would keep ourselves accountable by studying together, so here it is after a few months… i’m finally uploading our study session because i miss you, Kuya! stay safe in the Netherlands!

(again i can't study without music so i have random OPM songs playing in the background!) - also the amount of times i stretched my neck here, damn!

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BONUS: cyan wrote on the thumbnail! :)

this is our trip to europe last june 2019

but i wasn’t able to edit/post it at that time because law school happened (this was my last trip abroad before law school hit me)

it’s so nice to look back especially now that we’re all stuck at home so, travel with us! :)

places we visited: munich, germany prague, czech republic bratislava, slovakia budapest, hungary vienna, austria ghent, germany eagle’s nest, germany short trip to maastricht paris, france amsterdam, netherlands

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i’m watching bo burnham’s inside on netflix

i have loved every single special he has put out and until now i can’t choose between what. or make happy but i just love every single thing that he puts out.

i first knew about him back in college. i always find people who are passionate and thoughtful about what they do as really endearing, hence my love for bo burnham, countless comedians, and bts.

i guess the love comes from the fact that i’ve never seen that in myself my entire life but i also think that was me in college but i was too in the zone to notice.

the reason i am writing this right now is because bo burnham’s art, although he might think that that is pretentious, or his comedy was always a mixture of criticism, sadness, sarcasm, and thoughtfulness if that makes sense. it was always on the edge and the way he started the special made me think that inside was going to be different; well it is, in a way. but also in a way, it’s the same. the songs, the mindset he has, the quirky transitions, the attribution to declining mental health, in a way i don’t relate but i see it. in a way i see someone also struggling, albeit in a different way that i am but in a way it is comforting to know that we might not be experiencing the same things, but still, i am not alone in my self-doubt or in my depression or whatever it is i am feeling.

i am grateful for people like bo who put their heart or thoughts into their art and share it with people around them. i sometimes want to reach out but who am i but a mere viewer enjoying the things they put out. i can’t even reach out to people who i want to reach out and i KNOW them, how could i reach out to people who don’t even know me. so here’s a tumblr post for that special. it’s beautiful and sad and funny and comforting, but he doesn’t have to know that but i wish he did but please don’t read this because it’s embarrassing. thx.

also, damn. how is he so good.

#beigedrafts #bo burnham

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stream butter!!!! 22.5.2021; 13:03. #beigediaries https://www.instagram.com/p/CPKa5HFp-z1-3irquw2LvFmrllH_dEw80H34U40/?utm_medium=tumblr

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BTS BE ALBUM UNBOXING

this is the very first album that i have ever owned so i thought of documenting it 😅

music has really helped me deal with the pandemic (add online shopping to that list) and i can’t believe that the year is ending with me liking kpop.

btw, tomorrow is dec 4 so happy birthday to kim seokjin! 💜

he also released abyss today! awow. he truly is the gift that keeps on giving.

(originally posted on december 3)

#beigediaries #bts be #bts