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... too polite

#1989 taylor's version #1989 era #taylor swift #1989 tv

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“I’m still learning to love the parts of me that no one claps for.”

— Rudy Francisco

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After longing to be somebody else...

Rainer Maria Rilke, Journal of My Other Self

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Every one says forgiveness is a lovely idea, until they have something to forgive.

C.S. Lewis

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if only time would tell me that you will also run away with it.... I swear, I would've join you.

#late night thoughts

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via weheartit

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“Sometimes life has a cruel sense of humor, giving you the thing you always wanted at the worst time possible.”

— Lisa Kleypas

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Today death visits our house again.

Today marks the end of the days I have with the pets I grew up with; now they're all memories.

No dogs will now bark at the noises of kids playing outside. No more chirping of our birds in the morning, no more cleaning their cage everyday and playing with them when time permits. No more feeding of fish to our turtle, no more watching them walk in the living room roaming around.

Today marks the end of my days with them, but today also begins with them as memories of my childhood days I thought I didn't have fun. They made every year worth living, worth reminiscing.

Today marks the day that I'll remember them as friends I made along the way, those soul who guided me into being a good person, my dear angles.

I've seen this day coming, but it failed to prepare me now in feeling the pain of missing them. Time runs faster when you're getting older, like how one minute I wake up and in a blink, the sun sets in front of me.

#thoughts #diary #today

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Helen Oyeyemi, from White is for Witching

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anaquirosa

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“One of the hardest parts of life is deciding whether to walk away or try harder”

— Unknown

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[🍀] UNCERTAINTY

This is what I kept telling myself.

The slightest sight of hope most of the time deceives people, especially, hopeless people. They think that the slightest spark of light on the road is the sign that they finally reached the end of life's mysterious tunnel, only to find themselves on the same old track of hoping that life will soon smile for them.

One thing I kept telling myself is that the only thing that's constant in this world is it being uncertain. Everything can change in a blink of an eye. One day you have the ability to order yourself a whole box of pizza, not knowing that the next day, bad news will crumble in your feet. Maybe I'm being pessimistic here, but I call this reality. You can be happy in this world, but you have to make sure that tomorrow you can still be happy, by doing that you have to make sure that you're making the most of your time today fo your future.

I hate uncertainty. And the only solution I have in mind to deal with that is making sure I'm doing what I can today for my future. I hate looking into the future, the same way I hate uncertainty. But I for sure don't want to live only for today, especially if I still do not have any idea when future will stop for me.

#random #I'll pour my thoughts here before I sleep

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Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe

All the hell you gave me?

'Cause I loved you, I swear I loved you

'Til my dying day

My tears ricochet, Taylor Swift

#Spotify

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My relationship with god is not something that religions will accept. Religions said to be courteous with god and talk to him with all holiness, but I curse with god and told it all the things I experienced and the sins I did with all honesty. Don't want to sugarcoat things to someone who let me live this life, who saw me cry at night, whom I told that I never deserve all these, whom I told that I never wanted this life that it gave me.

I said what I said. I'd rather die knowing that I told god all that makes me cry, happy, and angry, rather than romanticize my tears and blood this life had given me for the sake of saving.

#thought #honest thoughts #I'd rather be honest with god rather than tell him words I never meant

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I envy those people who get to be surrounded with love all of the time. No matter how shitty the world gets, they get to lean to someone to rest. And I, well, I needed to cry for five minutes then get my shit together.

#thoughts #words #spilled words

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