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❤ Ben ❤

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Dinnertime 😜

#hungry #naughty

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"Soft, intimate, mind altering sex sounds really cozy right now.. you know the sex as you are drifting off to sleep or cuddling warmly? Yeah, that.."

I want that good, warm and fuzzy sex - eUë - #yadirf on Saturday night

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#narcissim #trust nobody #trust no 1

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Truth bomb right there.... never again, for nobody...

#truth #mistake #priorities

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Been fairly absent from posting much on here recently because my lifes actually been going decent for the first time in a long time and Ive been keeping myself busy... Should have known it would be short lived. Yesterday I felt something snap in my lower back and ended up in a heap on the floor unable to move my legs and the pain was excruciating. My neighbours called an ambulance after hearing me screaming and Ive spent the best part of last night in hospital waiting to be told what I already know... another piece of vertebrae in my lover back has crumbled and more herniated discs putting pressure on my sciatic nerve which i already have issues with. I had some permanent nerve damage in my left foot, mainly my toes but I now cannot feel my left foot at all. Ive discharged myself with pain relief, morphine, diazepam and pregablin and I need to wait for a referral to see the trauma team who wanted to operate on my spine the last time. I know I cant keep putting this surgery off for much longer but the thought of it absolutley terrifies me. The risks are so high with things that could go wrong and I would rather not be here at all then have to spend my life crippled in a wheelchair on my own. There is no way I can manage because I have no support network around me or any family that bother with me or gives a shit. I feel so low again and I cant deal with this

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My parents, ex partners.... you live and learn I guess....

#unrequited #unrequited thoughts #unrequited feelings

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#note to self #survivor #mentalhealth

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Every single time.... no more though, never again.

#unrequited #unloved

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This would be sooo nice right about now...

#hugs #feeling safe

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“It had been a long day, and I don’t mind saying that I cried a little bit. There is nothing wrong with crying at the end of a long day.”

— Lemony Snicket

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“Nobody goes through more shit in life than a person with a good heart.”

— Unknown

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http://instagram.com/thepersonalquotes/