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As an ace myself:

Wow this hit hard. To know that I will never understand why it is that people like this "sexual" thing so much kind of hurts. Feels like when I see a popular comedy show like "Friends" that view sexual experiences as funny and yet I don't get it at all. I wouldn't understand why people act the way they do because they aren't 'satisfied' in that way, or see the tension that binds people together. It just doesn't register in my brain why I would relate to it.

Doesn't help that asexual rep in popular TV shows are so little, and when they a r e mentioned, it's usually in a negative light, as if said person they're gossiping about is "broken" or "will never find love".

y'know, one thing i don’t see get talked about much in regards to asexuality is how it feels to never be ‘sexually motivated’ by anything

and not just when it comes to advertisements using ‘sexy’ models to try and sell you stuff, but like. in general

sex as a favor, sex as a bribe, sex in exchange for whatever

casual sex, ‘friends with benefits’ situations, even simple flirting

it all looks a whole lot different from the perspective of someone who’s immune to manipulation via sex appeal, who has virtually no understanding as to why sex would motivate someone to cheat on their partner, etc. etc.

sex is worthless to me

i mean, it’s useful as a story element in fiction, but it genuinely perplexes me that sex is such a driving force behind so many aspects of irl society & of people’s individual lives, for better or for worse

and that it’s so deeply ingrained into how the average person views the world & various situations, because the average person feels sexual attraction, whereas i do not

i think the barrier between aces & allos is actually even deeper than it seems on the surface at times, because it’s more than just the grating expectation that everyone must want to ‘settle down’ and have kids, it’s also the fact that the majority of the world is sort of ‘in’ on a joke that aces will never truly be a part of

#just ace stuff to think about #I often feel sad I never experience this ever #It's like being an outcast in a way

[beachblu3s]

... SOBS

congratulations on getting through the day even if it was really, really hard. you’re doing great.

[beachblu3s]

I also cannot help but think about it

i’ve been thinking about this video nonstop since the first time i saw it

the jaunty walk perfectly in time with the music. the tip of the hat the unaware or uncaring bystanders. the shaky camera with random zooming. the fact that this is seemingly happening in a park. this is peak media i can’t get over it

[beachblu3s]

I AM DOING WELL I HAVE A PART-TIME JOB AND I'M BACK IN SCHOOL :DD so glad that you're learning to take the pressure off yourself to draw for other people. it can be really tough to not fall into the trap of feeling beholden to your "audience" or w/e when creating things, esp when you feel like you've found a place or even a name in that particular community.

also yes, growing up is a lot of, "dang, i have to actually physically do these things? i have to smile and TRY???" but i think that the loveliest part of it for me so far has been actually paying attention to one's own growth and maturation process n feeling proud of that progress once you're a few years down the line

Wow, what a lovely sentiment :')) That's a nice way to think about it! Glad you're doing well!

[beachblu3s]

you know what. I kind of like it here better than instagram. Less pressure to draw things for likes and more for my own enjoyment

[beachblu3s]

Now that im an adult im looking into therapy🥰🥰🥰

These self help books are wild- are you telling me I have to physically GET UP and do a workout AND not slouch and FAKE a smILE what is this

#mf in the book was like *do a power pose before an interview so you'll get the confidence!* #Bro I'm not trying to become Tsukasa Tenma people would think im extra #like. I know it works buuuut #do i really wanna

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oh hey welcome back!! :D it's been a long time since you've been on my dash :3 also sincerest condolences on the genshin hell (says the one also in genshin hell) lol

RUBBERANDBALLQUEEN GAAAAAASSP i haven't seen you in forever omg!!!!!! What's up how are you!!

#omg i missed the tumblr regulars #yall were the nicest in the tags #HEHEHE

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HE LOOKS SO SILLY HERE SHSHSH he doing the rizz face like

">:)"

Do u draw fruit

MIYO HOW DID U GET HERE

[beachblu3s]

LMAO i did not know you were active here its like a super secret fanclub

Do u draw fruit

MIYO HOW DID U GET HERE

[beachblu3s]

Do u draw fruit

MIYO HOW DID U GET HERE

[beachblu3s]

This is a genshin and pjsekai account now btw BYE JSHK COMMUNITY :D

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im just wondering did u get bored of jshk? ik ppl get bored of things!! but like u went straight to pjsekai so i went 😦😦😦😦 IDK HOW TO ASK???,

LMAO OF COURSE I DID! I actually have to update my profile to reflect that lmao

[beachblu3s]

LMAOOOOO HIS FACE

fedex trying to say my package will be here by the end of the day when the package is still like 4 states away. that driver must be doing like 150 all the way here

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YESSS

anyone who told you much ado about nothing is good and worth watching was RIGHT and you should listen to them

[beachblu3s]

Hello sorry to bother you, maybe this is a strange ask but I just wanted to know if anything happened to the artist maagikaarpe? I know that you follow them (I am too shy too ask on instagram sorry) I took a break of instagram for some time and once I get back they are not here anymore. They are one of my fav jshk artist, so I just wanted to know if you know anything about it I am reallySorru to bother you and sorry for my english, have a great day

Oh heya, yes I do know actually!! They deactivated their account for a while to focus on some irl things- I saw it on their story before they left. I think they will be coming back once they get a break, I’m not sure.

I miss them too anon they were also one of my favorite jshk artists :(

#I miss seeing their art #sigh #their Akane drawings were so good they inspired me to draw Akane and now I draw him all the time #artists on tumblr #tbhk #jshk

[beachblu3s]

Reverse askbox: askbox but the fictional character is interviewing YOU

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I think of this place as my like-way lesser known account it’s really nice for posting things that my insta audience will see later lol

Anyways I ANIMATED FOR MY AU,,,

#the magic of animation and a good song #I played this song so much while animating I got sick of it lol #tbhk #jshk #jibaku shounen hanako kun #toilet bound hanako kun #anime fanart #artists on tumblr #animation #idk man #this took FOREVER #like a week #I was planning on animating more but my brain was not having it #motivation runs out quickly