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You know, I didn't get to move when I wanted to. But it turned out for the better. I'm in a one bedroom, cozy little apartment. I can have all my animals, I'm closer to my job than I would have been in the other apartment, and the place just feels like home. It's where I'm meant to be. This is a much better "Christmas". Better than I could have ever dreamed.

63! Days! Until I move out of the same town that my emotionally abusive mother lives in! Then I'll be in a two bedroom apartment AND be just down the road from work AND be able to legally have all my animals!

I'm so nervous and excited!

#non fandom #nonfandom #em speaks

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Moon after being put in quarantine due to the virus in the Pizzaplex.

#me too man. me too #moondrop #fnaf moon

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Eclipse is such a cutie, I love him sm :')💕

#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #eclipse #fnaf sb #fnaf eclipse #he #i love he

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so who else gets irrationally afraid and embarrassed about their interests being known to people in real life

#my mom did this to me. no wonder i feel like i have to hide everything i love #non fandom #nonfandom

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Here's a little video I recorded of the main Eclipse interaction. He's so skrunkly.

#the happy birthday gets me every time 🥺🥺🥺 #they're so freaking sweet. i wish we got more time with them #fnaf eclipse

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Malewife

#the angel. the sweet baby boy #i love him/them so much #fnaf eclipse

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It's like Christmas, except I don't get to open my presents until October 1st.

63! Days! Until I move out of the same town that my emotionally abusive mother lives in! Then I'll be in a two bedroom apartment AND be just down the road from work AND be able to legally have all my animals!

I'm so nervous and excited!

#non fandom #nonfandom #em speaks

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63! Days! Until I move out of the same town that my emotionally abusive mother lives in! Then I'll be in a two bedroom apartment AND be just down the road from work AND be able to legally have all my animals!

I'm so nervous and excited!

#non fandom #nonfandom #my mom has really been ahpwing her true colors and I remember why i got kicked out a few years ago #i even remember some things I blocked out and 😬 #time to go

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Some Sweet Summer Fun ~

#so freaking cute!!!! #i miss lunar so much :'( #tsams #tsams lunar #tsams moon

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With love, Eclipse ~

#ahgahsfxxzaf #HE #i don't even like eclipse that much but he looks so freaking cute #fnaf dca #tsams #tsams eclipse

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-I hope the next me is kinder to you- -Tsams- Image below :'>

#hey op? thanks for the reminder. owie #but seriously this looks beautiful #tsams #fnaf dca

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Nothing like being anxious all afternoon, then your mother calls you out of nowhere and you don't answer because your phone was on silent, then you text her that you're at an appointment and ask what's wrong, then she doesn't reply and now you have to stay away from your apartment for a little while because you're paranoid that your mom will drive by your apartment to see if you're there.

So you sit in a busy parking lot where you know she won't show up waiting a reasonable amount of time so you can go home "after your appointment"

#non fandom #nonfandom #em speaks #just trauma and family issues. you know

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Just a Sad sketch, you choose the context.

#hey op's? ow? #owie my heart #sundrop #fnaf dca

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Bonus: explain who your cats are and how you got them in the tags

#Adopted Evelyn after we fostered her for a while - she was the first cat who loved me and I loved her #finn was hanging around outside a house I was working at. the owners abandoned him and said i could have him #Sunny i took in from my family. she wasn't getting properly cared for or loved #i love them all

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#if i had to see this then so do others #I'm horrified #nonfandom #non fandom #i won't even put the movie title in the tags #i don't want to be associated with this atrocity

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"do robots dream?" you ask quietly one day in the gentle darkness of the daycare. the lights are out for naptime, and the air is filled with intermittent soft snores of the toddlers curled up cozily in their blankets.

moon looks over at you from his position squatted atop the security desk—surveilling the kids from the small height. his ruby red eyes alight the air between you in a tender glow. there's a moment of silence after your words, as though he is contemplating his answer.

"no," he eventually rasps out and turns his head back around to the bundles of blankets and pillows he's in charge of. a steady lullaby chimes out from within his chassis and it makes the ambience of the daycare more soothing than it usually is when the lights are on.

you hum and spin yourself idly around on the security desk's chair. "but if you could," you start as you stare up at the ceiling dotted with faint glow-in-the-dark stars, "what would you dream of?"

moon doesn't respond to you for a long time. you listen to his little lullaby and feel sleep brush warmly against your eyelids. it gets to the point where you wonder if he just doesn't feel like answering you—indulging you. not that you'd blame him. and just when you're about to change topics, maybe laugh off your inquisitive questions, he starts to speak in a low, low voice.

"we would dream of the sky," he says as he looks up at the daycare's ceiling. the small lights that dot it are in no way on par with the night sky you have the privilege of seeing every day. something aches in your chest at the distant longing in his gaze. "we would dream of the stars and the moon and the sun. we would dream of the sea. we would dream of an endless field of flowers."

you listen along as he speaks—perhaps airing out something that had been weighing upon him for who-knows-how-long. it makes you ruminate deeply, causes your toes to curl within your shoes and your heart to beat solemnly.

"we would..." he suddenly trails off, and you don't notice when his gaze flicks over to you for a brief moment, too caught up in spinning yourself around and around and around. he makes a soft sound like he's clearing his throat, then says no more. you do not push or press him, your mind lost in thought about a small daycare tucked in a desolate corner of the world. where the robot within looks up at a concrete ceiling and sees nothing beyond it.

we would dream of a house, with us and you, moon thinks but does not say. his eyes close as though he can picture it right before him. we would dream of late nights and early mornings. we would dream of a time where we could be with you and only you.

but that is only a dream, he sighs and reopens his eyes to continue his meticulous scanning of the children. the lullaby continues to chime away.

isn't it?

#:''''( #ow #but that's also so sweet like omg #fnaf dca

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because I feel like it

#agreed #also- potatoes #just...I don't want large white chunks in my vegetable soup #ew #i like potatoes but...no #non fandom #nonfandom