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autumnsunshine10 · 2 months

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#thank you kindly anon!#🤗💜

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autumnsunshine10 · 2 months

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Dear diary

How do I love myself again

When I'm not sure I ever really did

Maybe a time I claimed what was mine

Dropped denial and steeled my spine

When someone I loved wasn't put first

And I still carried out self-care

I cried and supplied needed comfort

I didn't get enough of growing up

And instead of dismissing what I felt

I acknowledged its validity then moved on

Before I let anyone else dictate my worth

Winter too far to freezingly squeeze

All vitality and assurance from my heart

I didn't need an excuse to love

Just the beat of my heart was enough

Every reason was reasonable

Back before I dissolved under the weight

Of expectations--taking credit for wrongs

That were never mine to right

How do I love myself again?

Tear out this page and start afresh

Forging forward on a blank new one

Writing to please me first and foremost

While sharing with those I care

Only that which I can actually spare

Prompts: rip the page out; all gone; excuse the reason

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autumnsunshine10 · 3 months

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Arrhythmia

Wasted so much damn time

On shackling sentimentality

Breathing in pollutants, irritants

Paying attention to the oblivious

What never pays attention to me

A lottery ticket scratched off too late

Tangled up in fate, so tempting

Attempting not to revert to hate

For myself...I still am worthy of love

At least I use that as a consolation

When the darkness closes in

And I must begin to remend

To fend and fight for every breath

Shaky yet still inhaling/exhaling

Dreams have deserted yet

Something solid is prevailing

Death isn't on the doorstep

If I go down it's teeth and nails

Scrapes and scratches calling card

God it's hard learning to live

To find yourself again

After the heart fails

Prompts: learning to live; paying attention

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autumnsunshine10 · 3 months

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Vertiginous

Brain burns

Mind melts

Smoke spilling from ears

Thinking and thinking and

I don't think I can think anymore

Eyes hurt with seeing too much

Yet somehow still missing a vital sign

Vial of poison shell game sleight of hand

Going down in the middle of the night

The blues are back in town

Bearing hallucinations and grim news

Angel on my shoulder and devil

In the details duking it out

While another bout is battled

Logic and emotion vie for victory

Though I thought my skin had calloused

An optical illusion, still paper thin

Desensitizing doesn't make sense

When the walls seem to be closing in

How a restless wrecked head can spin

Wide awake at 3 am again yet too tired

To cry and please please please

I can't go on like this

Something somewhere

Just has to give

Prompts: myself imploring; it finds a way to; the deeper darker

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autumnsunshine10 · 3 months

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Thank you for the tag @poppiesandpromises and @madworlddiary 💜

A poem that tends to pop into your mind: Robert Frost's Nothing Gold Can Stay

One line in a song: "Crying at the top of my voice, and no one listening" - In Too Deep, Genesis

One line in a movie: "The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return." - Moulin Rouge

A word you'll avoid for fear of over usage: none that I can think of

One word that is you, metaphorically (no explanation): fractured

Tag game for the poets and poetically inclined

Share:

A poem that tends to pop into your mind

One line in a song

One line in a movie

A word you'll avoid for fear of over-usage

One word that is you, metaphorically (no explanation)

Go!!

@allnightsong2, @sanddollarpoems, @poppiesandpromises, @the-hollow-quiet, @madworlddiary, @everytimeyousaygoodbye, @aubriestar, @mylovaboxa, @brooklynbubbles, @sdbea, @wordrummager, @psychicbouquetlove, @hitawall, @slowfalter, @lorienfae, @mycosmicbackyard, @simply-eno, @becomingpoet, @not--waving--drowning

... and tag your mutuals!

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autumnsunshine10 · 3 months

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Filling my head

Fantastic floaty notions

Drifting to a higher plane

Making a joyful noise

At a most pleasing face

Time traveler teach me

To enjoy the here and now

Let's play a game of good graces

Place me past the stars

In the eyes of one who sighs

Moonbeam dreams

In free-falling skies, scattering

From fingers clasped tight

Oh what a spacious sweet

Starry life

Inspired by:

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autumnsunshine10 · 3 months

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Thank you for tagging me @anjo-by-the-sea 💜

Last song: In Too Deep - Genesis

Favorite color: 💜💜💜

Last movie/show: Barbie/Queen Charlotte

Sweet/spicy/savory: yes/not too much/yes. Depends on my mood which I prefer

Relationship status: gotta agree with @madworlddiary above

Last Thing I Searched: hell if I can remember 😅

Current obsession: none

Tagged by @poppiesandpromises. Thank you!

Last Song: My Skin - Natalie Merchant

Favorite Color: Black

Last Movie/Show: The Office, my comfort show

Sweet/Spicy/Savory: Savory

Relationship Status: Broken hearted

Last Thing I Searched: Flights to Scotland

Current Obsession: My furry kiddos, vinyl, and healing

Tagging! @theglycoprotein , @anjo-by-the-sea , @songofanothersummer , @drearydaffodil, @sagedigger

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autumnsunshine10 · 4 months

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Social life on the line

Presented through a lens

Rose-colored and prettified

Endless holidays on display

Every posted pic a charade parade

Only the choicest highlights of the day

Scroll on by, let your fingers fly

It isn't all ideal fun and games, besides

We have our own causes to celebrate

Don't need a tree with presents piled high

Nor pumpkins and pulled cotton cobwebs

Pastel eggs in plastic grass-lined baskets

A sunny sandy relaxing getaway

Would always be a most welcome surprise

But not necessary to feel every day

That floating on air sensation divine

Someone or something special is all it takes

So say you'll be my 365/forever valentine

Prompts: scroll on by; it's always a holiday

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autumnsunshine10 · 4 months

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@warxpunkxmonk @drearydaffodil thank you both so much for this tag from sometime long long ago; sorry it's taken me this long to answer. Everything Tumblr related has taken a while to get back to for me. But again thank you so much, it was so very sweet of you and I think you both are wonderful as well! 💜

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autumnsunshine10 · 5 months

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They say keep it on the down-low

Nobody else needs to know

Don't give them the lowdown

It's not their business anyhow

Be human but set apart

Pretend you don't own a heart

Then it can't be broken

Divided into tokens

Inserted at the arcade

Another game to be played

Or a digital download

To keep them busy on the road

Serving up sold-out shows

Under the spotlight glow

A full house eager crowd

Getting so hyped-up loud

While you sit up at home

Waiting by the telephone

Well it's a good time to go

Since nobody needs to know

Prompts: on the down low; human but not; to be divided

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autumnsunshine10 · 5 months

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Another year floating by

On butterfly and bird's wings

Falling to the here and now

Like leaves twirling from trees

Every season's change

Made the most of beautifully

Art poured from your heart

Ever timelessly riveting

Happy birthday to my sweet, creative, generous friend @sherrylephotography 💜

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autumnsunshine10 · 5 months

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I could spend all my mornings

Wrapped up in blankets

Like this--your hand in mine

My head on your chest

Wallowing in our lazy Sunday best

Betting on endless tomorrows

The relentless sun seeks us out

Wishing to shine as bright and hot

No such luck but it gets us up

Still I sip my coffee with a smile

Drain the last drop while you wrestle

With the urge for a smoke

Instead you light on my lips

Zoom in till there's zero room for doubts

Then you're wearing my grin

As if it's always been that easy

Effortless, like nothing else

I've never known moments

Like this could exist

Prompts: you and I this morning; wrestling with smoke; still I

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autumnsunshine10 · 6 months

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I greatly appreciate this and you, @sherrylephotography! It's stunning, like you, my friend! I love it and feel honored 💜 Belated just means the surprises last longer 😄

Wishing @autumnsunshine10 a belated happy birthday.

Please forgive my forgetfulness, but I couldn't let the occasion pass without sending you belated birthday wishes.

Here's to a future that is filled with love, joy, and abundance.

Thank you so much for your friendship and support.

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autumnsunshine10 · 7 months

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The world is in bloom

A budding wildflower

Thriving unexpectedly

Spiting what hellish elements

Dared tried beating it back

Petals unfurling one by one

Opening under an awed sun

Everything feels brighter, bigger

Maybe there somewhere all along

Too busy, too bustling

Too stuck on the blunders

To notice the wonders

My, how they've grown!

Prompt: bigger maybe

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autumnsunshine10 · 7 months

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What inspired you to start writing poetry?

Life. Mine, and needing an escape from it at times. A way to process my emotions and exercise my active imagination. And because there's been so much beauty I've witnessed that I couldn't keep it all in

What's inspired you?

#thank you for asking!#💜#ask #answered

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autumnsunshine10 · 8 months

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Next Stop

Okay so here's the thing--

My guard went out to lunch

Then one shuffled up offering

Profundity temporarily covering

Nitty-gritty insipidity--for shame!

Trenchcoat drenched...look away.

Parking my backside on a bench,

Sitting out another grand slam game;

Pop up scrimmage on the fly,

Suiting up umpire style...

Learned lesson, belatedly applied.

Supplanted, supply and demand

Disenchanted by an elephant

In the room I read wrong.

My head can't wrap around

Tunnel vision distance...

Put the fun in funneling,

The scam in scampering.

There's nothing to see here--

Heavily cloaked fully clothed,

Dragging busted baggage...

So it's not just a compact carry-on.

That's fine, I'll take my chances

On the next bus to stop by.

Prompts: there's a thing, park bench

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autumnsunshine10 · 8 months

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I was tagged by @poppiesandpromises and @alex-a-roman to share my answers (thank you both!) 💜

Last song:

Currently watching: Last Night in Soho and rewatching Leverage

Currently reading: The Moonstone by Wilkie Collins

Current obsession: poetry (writing and reading) and fun with puns 🤠

I'm supposed to tag people but I'm just gonna extend an open invitation to anyone who wishes to do this

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