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important notes i forgot to add

it is the once-a-year big horse race week in the city so everyone else getting on the packed train to the city centre was dressed to the nines

i actually was pretty stuck like it had me there for a minute. amazed i didn't just give up and just allow myself to be consumed by the beach tbh

as it started to dry, part of the sand/goo mix became flaky, leaving a trail of dusty mess everywhere i stood

in trying to remove the goo, after scraping at it with a stick and a razor clam didn't work, i intentionally added more sand, hoping that would help the goo dry. it did not. if anything it made the situation worse

i did go to the coffee kiosk outside the station, and the counter prevented them from seeing the lower half of me so i got to pretend for a minute that i didn't look. like that

by the time i got off the bus, the goo had mostly dried like clay and it felt like both my legs and feet were in plaster

i only found 3 pieces of sea glass, all too big to use in this particular project

i did find a couple of really nice shells though

posting here to hold myself accountable: i am going to make it to the beach today to look for seaglass so i can finish making my candle holder

#thanks for coming on the journey. now to never speak of it ever again #it's fine it was an adventure. a learning curve. an experience #first and last time at this particular beach though thank you

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home and in the bath trying to wash away the horrors of the day

posting here to hold myself accountable: i am going to make it to the beach today to look for seaglass so i can finish making my candle holder

#my shoes are in a bucket of water in the garden #all good. just as i planned for the day to go :) :) :)

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adding a fresh-out-the-goo picture, because you don't understand just how gooey i was initially

posting here to hold myself accountable: i am going to make it to the beach today to look for seaglass so i can finish making my candle holder

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how i feel on this train

posting here to hold myself accountable: i am going to make it to the beach today to look for seaglass so i can finish making my candle holder

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do i live somewhere close to this beach? that i can walk home with only a few people seeing me up to my knees in goo and sand?

a train AND a bus away, with a walk through the city centre

posting here to hold myself accountable: i am going to make it to the beach today to look for seaglass so i can finish making my candle holder

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got stuck in slimy sinking goo and sand. it's not noticeable right

posting here to hold myself accountable: i am going to make it to the beach today to look for seaglass so i can finish making my candle holder

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an update: made it to the beach but. things went awry

posting here to hold myself accountable: i am going to make it to the beach today to look for seaglass so i can finish making my candle holder

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posting here to hold myself accountable: i am going to make it to the beach today to look for seaglass so i can finish making my candle holder

#leaving the house: a struggle lately #in full freeze mode over here

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STAR TREK: DISCOVERY (2017-2024) S05E01, RED DIRECTIVE

#so happy to see them #would like more #joann owosekun #keyla detmer #disco

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online communities are so strange because people slip away so easily. you can be on here for years, folding people you've never met into the fabric of your daily life, and then they disappear, leaving only ghost posts scattered across tumblr behind. or their blog stays dormant, for weeks, months, years, until you're only still following them because you remember that they love sunflowers or they were kind to you when they didn't have to be or the last thing they posted was sad and raw and you still worry about them sometimes.

and sometimes they come back when you least expect it, years later, even, and there's this sudden rush of relief like there you are, there you are, even though you barely knew each other.

there's a strange kind of love to it. i don't know you and i want to hold your hand across miles and time zones and oceans. i can still see the imprint of you in this community you left. you don't anyone will notice or care when you're gone, but we notice and we care and we wish you well.

i hope you're all okay out there. i hope the sun is shining on your face and you are breathing deeply. i miss you.

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i can't do this anymore! i mean i can, and i will, obviously. but i can't fucking do this anymore!

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Greta Garbo from Queen Christina (1933) if you read this im free on Thursday night and would like to hang out. Please respond to this and then hang out with me on Thursday night when I'm free -

#the power that garbo in queen christina (1933) holds #this captures it perfectly #greta garbo

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"you are so mature" thanks i was traumatized at a young age

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STAR TREK: DEEP SPACE NINE // S4E6 Rejoined What do you want to do? Throw myself at her, profess my undying love and my complete disregard for Trill society. A joke Lenara made at the reception. Doesn't sound so funny anymore, does it?

#this episode really is a masterpiece #rejoined #jadzia dax #lenara kahn #ds9

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Never underestimate the laser focus and raw dedication of a Neurodivergent who's only doing this task to avoid doing a different task.

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femslash rarepairs save me

#mirror ezri/mirror leeta #(also the non-mirror ship sometimes too)

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#just finished a rewatch so very much into my hacks feelings at the moment #hacks