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Custom Monica Ivena

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Vivienne Westwood 2023 Bridal

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every day i get a little madder about the ‘dream job’ narrative… all i want is to have a job that benefits society somewhat, doesn’t abuse me, and lets me live a happy life outside of my job lol. jobs should not be (and arguably can’t be) cosmic destinies and identities

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My manager on a handover: *in caps, bold&underlined* [dæny] DO NOT PANIC

Me: *panics constantly. Panic attacks all the time. Crying at everything. A general mess basically. Also being signed off from work* okay. I won’t panic

#it’s so ironic that even I’m laughing #mental health #panic attack #panic disorder #anxious babbles #anxiety #depression

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#karma

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#great now I feel even more invisible #cheers dad #quiet as a mouse

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anxious babbles back with another gem of a day (sarcasm)

Day 167 (I think, judging by my other posts)

it’s morning, meaning 8am n I’m about to tackle the paperwork of the day and the day I didn’t finish. N the manager comes in to ask me to count some stock… long story short, I miss half the stock n I’m feeling utterly useless

Roll a few hrs by n a holder of planting bulbs fall on a customers cat n scratches it. Manager is called… does she come! No. So I go n find her, n she has a go at me for not helping the customer immediately when I cannot help bc I’m not a manager…

Then she says to me “look it’s a mess the winds blowing paper all over, what is it that your actually doing?” Like… hello, I have other jobs and I cannot stop the wind??

She was basically blaming me for the WIND blowing over the holder and scratching the car…

THEN, I’m waiting in line to buy my food bc I still haven’t had a break and I finish in an hour and a half, and I have to jump on the tills. … YALL like this one… you ready??

I refuse a customer a sale of 4 packs of paracetamol (in the uk the limit is two per person) as she originally wanted to buy about 10 and 4 packs of nerophen (which falls under the same law) her husband is muttering under his breath and storms out when she pays for the first lot n I put through the others thinking he’s gonna pay for em… but she goes to pay. N I’m like “I canne see you these” … we go back and forth and finally she tells me “fuck you”, storms off but not before thinking about throwing the paracetamol at me…

That’s my fucking shitty day as a “customer service supervisor” … everything is always our fault. I don’t know what pissed me off more the woman who told me to fuck myself or my manager… oh wait I do, definitely my manager

#don’t see how it’s MY fault #yall insured anyway #it’s actually the floor supervisor issue #retail #respect retail assistants #respect shop assistants #why is that so damn hard to ask #it’s literally the law #I cannot sell you them #I could probably get fired if I do #n I ain’t for a pack of 45p paracetamol

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Oh so yall can call your other mates but not me??

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Oh so I guess today’s a day where everyone treats me as a second okay fine

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Wow so two days in a row I’ve actually had decent conversations about work with my dad and ones where he doesn’t talk to me like a child…

#progress?? #maybe #we shall see #mental health

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I DON'T GIVE A FUCK IF IT DOESN'T GO WITH YOUR BLOG'S THEME.

And yes, REBLOG. Liking does no shit at all. This isn't ig.

You reblog, people see it. You don't, people don't see it. This shit's that simple.

This could save someone's life. It's not a joke.

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117 days ago I started this job and since then I have:

- had two panic attacks

- been reported and upset by customers which caused said panic attacks

- been awarded employee of the month

- struggled but adjusted to my new schedule fairly quickly (4 months)

- not felt as overwhelmed as I thought I would

- combated and negotiated with my anxiety & I’m still able to walk into work with a smile

I’m sure there is more but these are what comes to mind. It’s crazy to think how far I have come in only 4 months. If I was told in my first month that I would be training to be supervisor after being asked by two supervisors, I would have scoffed and told you to get lost. But, this is happening. People are listening, respecting and acknowledging my hard work during a short amount of time I have been there.

Being appreciated in a job makes it worthwhile, no matter the job. If it’s cleaning, retail or scriptwriting. Appreciate your workers and listen to them when they are in need, and if they cry, panic or both, know that doesn’t define their ability to do the job and do it to their upmost best.

I’m nervous, but ready. I think, I hope.

first day @ new job = ✅ done

yesterday was my induction and that was so long and tiring - maybe even slightly awkward

I was apparently supposed to be trained on the till during the induction but wasn’t so the staff were a bit panicked

I, surprisingly, was super calm and didn’t have any form of breakdown which is a MASSIVE win ✨✨✨

not to mention I wasn’t sure if I would enjoy it bc of the amount of customers I knew I would have; but I actually can’t wait for my next shift - which is tomorrow! yay!

happy + proud of myself

#mental health #dairy #blab #blabbing #diary #anxious babbles

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I start my supervisor training tomorrow 😅