admiringlove

[admiringlove]

hi there! if you’ve been around for a while, you know that i used to be quite active on here. interacting with moots, writing fics and drabbles almost daily, and being very social.

stuff used to be fun. people were nicer, life was good. regrettably life caught up to me 😭

i had some unfortunate things happen to me in this year and a half. some of my closest friends had a falling out, i went through some rough times in general, family members passed away. basically, shit went down.

back then, i had loads of time because i was in high school. but now, i had to take a drop year because i couldn’t get into med school. said drop year is currently going on. so! the point i’m trying to make is—yes i’ve disappeared. stuff happened. there’s emotional and academic baggage that i have to sift through and take care of for a while. i won’t be active or post things for some time.

HOWEVER. i will come back. it won’t be too long until i have to reapply for med school. and if everything goes well, i’ll be a medical student trying to fulfill my childhood dreams :)

until then, goodbye.

(not for forever though. i’ll make sure to come back with good news 💪🏽)

#important! #pinned post #sam rambles for no reason 📼 #life update

[admiringlove]

my exam is coming up :(

#potato

[admiringlove]

Hi!! Quick question, I saw someone talk about a Kaeya series and binged it in one sitting after finding it in your navigation post.

If reader were an actual character in the game, would they be a 5 star or a 4 star character?

ooo i didn't think that far honestly. but now that i am, i'd say five star. monstadt doesn't have any five star electros (from what i know), so i'd say reader would be that. and as for in game, i think they'd be introduced right after kaeya (seen bonking kaeya on the head) to make their dynamic immediately known.

reader's backstory in the series is quite intricate, so i would like to understand that they make a rapport with traveler and paimon pretty quickly. that's pretty much it, tbh. thank you for taking the time to send in the ask!

#series; it's always been us. #iabu is my most favorite thing i've written and ugh #everytime i get an ask or a message related to it i burst in happiness #sam rambles for no reason 📼 #to: sam.

[admiringlove]

my physiotherapist calls me the screaming kid 💀

#sam rambles for no reason 📼 #he says i scream a lot compared to other patients #how do i tell him my pain tolerance is high i’m just dramatic 💀

[admiringlove]

u asked for motivation/angsty haikyu & honestly? i read ur stuff when it gets a lil depressing in my life. i think ur great! and even tho it’s not hq, i would say ur kaeya series is the best thing i’ve ever read 🥰

so mwah <333 take a deep breath. we believe in u 🫰

STOP THIS IS SO NICE OF U TO SAY

tysm <3 made my day a bit better :)

#jan is usually a depressing month for me always #but this year has been weirdly kinder #to: sam.

[admiringlove]

send motivation (angsty haikyu fics) because my academic era is on the brink of collapse ‼️‼️‼️

#no like pls #i’m literally so exhausted #my brain needs it’s fuel juice #sam rambles for no reason 📼

[admiringlove]

got my stitches removed from the surgery today 😽

#sam rambles for no reason 📼

[admiringlove]

surprise, fellow kids. I bet you thought you’d seen the last of admiringlove

#sam rambles for no reason 📼 #sam is writing 📜 #i’m gonna drop another post soon i promise #bear with me

[admiringlove]

me: i’m bored and in excruciating pain

also me: i’m writing fanfiction to forget that i have a broken knee 🥰😍😽‼️

#sam is writing 📜 #NO LIKE WHY IS THIS FUN #i’m giggling and squealing

[admiringlove]

I've seen your post about the surgery, I'm glad it went well😊 have a succesful recovery!!

thank you so much!!

#to: sam. #i’m sort of uncomfy rn because i can’t move around a lot #but i’ll slowly get better

[admiringlove]

the way i’m endlessly scrolling on pinterest and tumblr because i have nothing better to do after coming home from the hospital 😭

#no because i hate not being able to move around #i used to be a very adhd person who couldn’t ever sit still #i’m used to being hyperactive and moving around and running after my dog #and this makes me feel useless and pathetic because i have to sit in one place #sighs #anyway #i am home #and i’m glad to be home because the hospital bed fucking sucked #sam rambles for no reason 📼

[admiringlove]

getting discharged in a few hours 😍

ya girl is finally getting her knee reconstruction surgery in the morning tomorrow ‼️

#i’ll be in physiotherapy for a long while tbh #feeling useless yayay 🥰 #sam rambles for no reason 📼

[admiringlove]

it’s the next day and i’m alive 😩

ya girl is finally getting her knee reconstruction surgery in the morning tomorrow ‼️

#sam rambles for no reason 📼 #in a lot of pain but i’ll make it through

[admiringlove]

ya girl is finally getting her knee reconstruction surgery in the morning tomorrow ‼️

#sam rambles for no reason 📼 #ok so basically #two months ago i got into an accident #went to the ER and got misdiagnosed #went home #knee did not heal at all #turns out most of my ligaments are completely shredded #can’t do sports or gym for the next year and a half #will be in physio for 5 months or more #BUT i will be able to walk after 2 months so yay

[admiringlove]

i just want someone who call me their Favorite person.

#no but fr #me when #sam rambles for no reason 📼

[admiringlove]

Ew, @idyllicsam, no.

Warmest regards,

The Tumbeasts

#i-???? #it’s just me roasting myself up in here. #sighs #sam rambles for no reason 📼

[admiringlove]

YOO i was going thru your top posts like a stalker and honestly the kuroo series sounds hella interesting!! Could you give us any idea of what the plot could be?

Also I’m sorry you got hate from that dumb anon honestly how pathetic 💀💀

oooo hi! the series is going to be called “broken homes and shattered hearts”, it’s going to be slow burn with lots of angst and some triggering themes tbh, so i would suggest for people to not read it unless they’re okay with mentions of like family abuse and trauma.

as for the plot, can’t give out too much, honestly. ruins the surprise, BUT. i can say that the reader definitely will have a plot of their own instead of the plot revolving around the character. i love adding twists to the reader’s experience as well. i did that with kaeya (genshin) and atsumu (hq) in the series’s i wrote for them, and it sorta turned out pretty great.

and as for the hate, i like to think of them as fans instead because i’m over cyber bullying atp 😭

#to: sam. #series; broken homes and shattered hearts.