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I feel like nag quota na ako when it comes to doing my research. I think it's time to just...get up and go

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Also WTF happened to tumblr the dash is ugly as hell

Five months post-grad, and I'm super super well! I wasn't supposed to work but the opportunities just kept coming and it's been so fun and phenomenal! I've realized that I've experienced and gone for everything I ever wanted to do. There's just one more dream...and millions more to dream of too. How amazing!

Hope everyone's been well. I have a feeling I'll be active again next year. ;)

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Five months post-grad, and I'm super super well! I wasn't supposed to work but the opportunities just kept coming and it's been so fun and phenomenal! I've realized that I've experienced and gone for everything I ever wanted to do. There's just one more dream...and millions more to dream of too. How amazing!

Hope everyone's been well. I have a feeling I'll be active again next year. ;)

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"Wild Poppies Near Argenteuil" painted by "Claude Monet"

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I graduated exactly a month ago btw but I wanna be dramatic so I’m typing a whole post but at the same time I just want to yk...give a simple announcement so....I GRADUATED!! WOOOOOOOOO!!! RAAAAAAH THANK YOU FOR ALLLLLL THE LOVE AND SUPPORT THE PAST FIVE YEARS! WE MADE IT AND I’M SO HAPPY WE’RE FINALLY OFFICIALLY FREE<3

#yes I waited six months for my ceremony #SENTI POST SOON MUAH

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No you cannot fix your entire life at 2am. Go to bed.

#ode to self

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I want the blissful sweetness of doing nothing

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With honors

My blockmate posted a screenshot of an email saying he was graduating with honors + an award. I guess the emails for awards were sent already. I didn’t get one, and it was so surprising to catch myself feeling...disappointed? It wasn’t the heartbreaking disappointment or the one that would drive me to positive thinking (call it copium idc)..it was just a pang of “damn thats crazzzyyy”

There’s a post going around that’s like, “I want to be creative but all my energy is used for survival” and I feel like that mirrors my academic life since the pandemic started. I stopped giving my 100% and I didn’t prioritize getting high marks. I told myself there really was more to life than grades. (I didn’t slack off though, I’m still a perfectionist, but I became significantly more toned down LOL).

I still believe it, I guess. Which is why it feels so strange to be disappointed that I really didn’t reach the minimum for cum laude. When I checked my CGPA, I noticed that I was short like...0.5? 0.1? BASTA IT WAS SO CLOSE...SO I WAS LIKE...can they curve....?

I think two things can be true at once...I can feel disappointment while also knowing that I did the best that I could at the time...or I made the decision that would prioritize my wellbeing at the time...and I could also just...make peace with the fact that I was just so exhausted I didn’t want to fight for my grades.

zzzz....

#gradwaiting-era

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the traumatized urge to get a masters degree/study again in general...

#grad-waiting era

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There’s someone I need to reply to and i’m just putting it off because I feel so awkward and why does it feel like its such a big thing like I...just want to be calm why am I doing this to myself lmfaoo

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I keep lowkey checking for jobs but I know in my heart I would throw up if I start working any time soon...but im so expensive...like...I need adult money fr but genuinely thinking about getting a job makes me feel so ill!

#gradwaiting-era

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throwback to exam season where i spent every day spending a concerning amount of money in coffee shops

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unstoppable force (wanting to be the kindest version of myself) vs unmovable object (all the anger and hatred I have inside myself)

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compilation of texts my mom has sent me when my cat is wailing outside my room and i haven’t opened the door for her yet