aaronthemusician

[aaronthemusician]

Some songs are better when you're up past midnight and alone and sad

https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=23V1j_cp-_k&feature=share

[aaronthemusician]

“I feel myself shutting down, closing off, like I should tell people, ‘No, we don’t use this heart anymore. It’s too fragile.’”

— Courtney C. Stevens

[aaronthemusician]

I wish more than anything that I could spend the entirety of my life dedicated to art. Living it, breathing it, consuming it, creating it.

Why must we toil away our time in years for useless coin.

[aaronthemusician]

When you try very hard but fail, it's tempting to blame the system.

It's tempting to be jealous of successful artists who are much further than you.

"What really makes them better, anyway?"

This is why it's so important to compete with your past self rather than other people.

Art is not a competition.

Learn from your mistakes, press on when you are faced with adversity, and stay humble.

[aaronthemusician]

I have the knowledge I need, but I am not a good communicator/teacher.

I can work on my communication and teaching skills

I have the experience, but not the team.

I can show others what I am capable of and what I know, in hopes to gain some team players.

I am asking the right questions, but not coming up with all of the answers.

I can ask my questions out loud.

[aaronthemusician]

Hello Tumblr. It's me again. Just going through another depressive episode and I'm not sure why.

Somehow I find myself turning here at times like this. It feels like a place I can escape to journal about my depression.

I guess it's something. Better than just sitting around doing nothing.

But I find myself asking what am I doing with my life.

I always feel like I was supposed to be an actor, a writer, a performer, a musician. A creative.

But I am all of these things. I just don't feel like I am for some reason.

I don't feel like I do enough, like I have enough time for it. I don't feel valid because I work a full time job doing other things.

I just want to create and not have to worry about finances ever again. Yet when I find time to create then I find myself feeling demotivated. Burned out.

What do I want?

I want to be unafraid of being taken advantage of by others who have their own interests in mind.

I want to help people who are where I used to be. I want people to be further than I am now when they reach my age.

Other people have a better shot than I do, and I'm not even sure why.

I've tried so hard to work at my craft, but I've kept it to myself for so many years. I squandered my talent because I was afraid of something.

I wrecked myself. Self sabatoge.

I was afraid of what life would look like making a living on music

I was afraid of not being good enough despite my efforts.

I was afraid of losing my job.

I was afraid of being taken advantage of, because I have historically been a very passive person.

I was holding on to control too much.

I wasn't collaborating enough or learning from my mistakes.

Where do I go from here?

I suppose I reach out for help. I rest. I recharge. I strategize. I include other people in my process.

I hope for the best. Work on myself. Ignore the metrics, and press on regardless.

#journal #depression #musician

[aaronthemusician]

Playing with knobs

#musician #synthesizer #alternative #music #synth #alt pop #80s aesthetic #artist #moog #moog synthesizer

[aaronthemusician]

#studio #home studio #musician #synthesizer #synths #keyboards #keys #guitar #aesthetic #80s aesthetic #alternative #artist #synth #alt pop #music

[aaronthemusician]

“She woke up one day and decided to stop waiting for her life to begin and start making things happen instead.”

— Unknown

[aaronthemusician]

“It’s a hell of a responsibility to be yourself. It’s much easier to be somebody else or nobody at all.”

— Sylvia Plath

[aaronthemusician]

This is a work in progress. I will likely remove it from this blog in the near future…

[aaronthemusician]

I had a blast on stage. I find myself feeling a little strange after the show is over.

Do I continue to play live?

When will I be able to play again?

...Will I be able to play out again?

Is it irresponsible to play out more with COVID numbers on the rise again?

I don't have all the answers. I'm left with my questions. Maybe it's time to head back to the studio again — while we search for the answers. We will return to the stage again some day. And hopefully that day is soon.

Stay safe everyone.

#musicians #musician #indie music #live music #concert #live concert #alternative #synthesizer #alt indie #alt pop #artist #mental health

[aaronthemusician]

Minecraft is the future. I've said it once I'll say it again. People write books about it, people sing about it, people learn real life skills through it. There's a whole lore and everything.

Y'all think it's Mars, government cults, and robots. Nope. Minecraft.

#minecraft #futurism #future

[aaronthemusician]

One minute I'm chill, the next minute I am Glass Animals singer Dave Bayley referring to himself as "Wavey Davey" on the song Tokyo Drifting by Glass Animals.

WAVEY DAVEY'S ON FIRE 🔥🔥🔥

#glass animals #musician #music scene #dream pop #alt pop #alternative

[aaronthemusician]

Currently listening: Tokyo Drifting — by Glass Animals

This is such a fucking good song

#now listening #listening #music scene #music #pop music #alt pop #synth

[aaronthemusician]

oh my gdO CAN YOU DRAW GODZILLA MOMMA CARRYING LIKE A HUNDRED LIZARD BABIES ON HER BACK FOR TAKE YOUR CHILD (lizard) TO WORK DAY

oh SHOOT well i cant swing 100 but how bout

[aaronthemusician]

“Choose people who choose you.”

— Unknown