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Also our therapist sucks bad keeps ghosting us

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Work sucks and I was diagnosed with adhd which is chill but people seem to think that going on meds will fix all my problems

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Okay so I’m dating someone we’ll call A, been dating them for a year. Online dating but whatevs.

A is a did system, I’m a partial did system.

I’ve also been dating my online friend B for uhhhhh, idk. Months. We have a group chat and everyone knows who’s dating who.

Planning on flying over to meet B next year. A has expressed jealousy about B.

Now, A is no longe host of their system. A also has brushed off my concerns about A’s alters dating an irl friend. Like, said it’s fine because A only likes me, but brushes off that I was not informed of other alters feelings before suddenly they’re talking about asking their friend out.

I feel a lot more connected to B than I do A but I feel guilty for it and also lowkey wanna break up with A but that’s tremendous amounts of guilt

Basically, help :(

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My irl best friend is a stuffed animal , I love him but ahhh sad and lonely and bhshshs

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I am both desperate and terrified to love

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People really just ghost everyone they know and have four mental breakdowns and be mentally unstable and then pretend like nothing happened while procrastinating one of the very things that caused the breakdowns

It's me I'm people

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Hey tony, listen to burn butcher burn, you’re butcher :)

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I haven't been sleeping well, my brother has been in and out of hospital, my meds aren't working, I've been trying to figure out how to study again, I haven't been eating properly

And now one of my friends is annoyed at me for a sarcastic comment I made when I was mentally and physically tired (and annoyed that she didn't deal with the issue herself or brought it up to me sooner)

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Also I almost broke my toe today

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I was mutual with a person but they’re friends with tony so hah bye

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What’s the point anymore

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The person I loved turned into someone I don’t know.

Gues my trust issues are right, in a way. Just never expected it to be them

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I hate that I have so many trust issues but I hate more when people prove them right. I hate having to cut off friends when I'm feeling so lonely today. I hate that I feel guilty for feeling lonely but I don't have any irl friends. I hate feeling like I'm second best I hate feeling like I'm just a bother to people. I hate that they didn't defend me and I absolutely hate that they're still friends with the asshole that ruined me. But I say I deserve better but idk if I do. Maybe all this bad stuff keeps happening because I'm not a good friend. Maybe I keep getting left behind because im not a good person. I want to be a good person. I want to be happy and loved and to know that I am loved. I want to feel secure in who I am.

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I did find some coping mechanisms though! Not bad not bad

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If anyone needs I will be wasting away okay thanks bye

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#I say I’m fine but also haven’t eaten in 20 hours #oops? #it’s just hard to function lately #image #vent